Thursday, December 22, 2016

When You Come To The Surface

it's only a few days until Christmas . Things aren't so good and usually things are pretty great . I'm living on faith . Your the only one who loved me for me . Never touched me on the outside but my insides are full of your finger prints . I have no way to wash them away . No one tries to reach in the middle , your far away in a castle now and I just want to reach you . I'm screaming silently do you hear me still ? I can't escape my own soul , that's your own

Sunday, December 4, 2016

The News

Depeche Mode this week has become some sort of an obsession as well as the quote, "Don't beg anyone to love you." This is true . Why should I ?  Even if he is my one true love, I need to be his. I need to focus on finding a new job. I am here upset I feel betrayed by some of my good friends , maybe his hands were tied but he should have fired that asshole who threatened me at work. He was a piece of shit a real crazy asshole. I am turning in the cover to my new book I need to focus on getting this done and published. Things were going so well and then bamb ! The breaks go out in my car, and I was sick in the hospital and here I am at square one. Its ok Ill bounce back. I need a new car and apparently some new friends.

I have a few great ones thats pretty great too. Fuck you if you have been aweful. My love of my life I think I secretly gave til this December to come back , but there has been nothing.. How has fate lied to me. I feel him every day. I been alone every day and I am beginning to feel alone.  I deserve to be swept off my feet the only thing guys want is sex. Can I get dinner please?