Sunday, December 21, 2014

2014 - 14

Hello my few readers who read my dribble here on my secret blog . Christmas is in a few days and the year is almost over . This year in whole has been the best and worst year of my life . 

So is it a wash ? ( I laugh to myself ) 
Big plans for 2015 I can only hope it's better than every other year . 

If I look back on what I learned : 
1. Love your enemies with out expecting anything in return . This was huge this year . 

2. Going out side of my box I learned the only thing holding me back is me . Face your fears . 

3. Learned a lot about true friendship by having great friends . 
4. Never settle - jobs , friends , people .

5. Don't waste a moment with anyone who doesn't value me . 

Next year is about finishing my goals and praying God gets me there . God is good 

This year has been emotional and a fun journey . What is going to happen next ?

- Amy 

Friday, December 19, 2014

Winter

It's Friday night and winter has set in here in California .... I'm home and I'm watching The Lucky One . After talking to my new guy for 3 weeks he disappeared for reasons I don't know why . I was pretty excited to meet him , maybe he thought I was dependent , but everyone here knows that's not true . 
Who just disappears any way ? I've never in my life been treated this way . My first real attempt since , ( hes ) been gone on dating . I really thought I found a great guy . I'm left so confused . I been pretty upset the past few days , but I'll be fine .Not worth my time obviously . I'm just disappointed . I'm never meeting any one again . This was already hard for me . I open myself up this happens ??? 
I pray for a better day tomorrow 

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Somewhere

All my tears been used up ...

On another love . 

Sunday, December 7, 2014

New Day

So ... I met a " seemingly nice guy " . First date is Wednesday . I gotta tell you I'm very afraid to like this guy . He seems great but he might be a liar , he might not like me ..... So many things to be afraid of . I'm so picky ... So guarded . Can I do this ?

I guess we will see ...
I really like him ...

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Facebook

I hate Facebook . It's a corrosion of family pictures and things , that others try to measure up to . Is it even real ? 
I find myself looking at family pictures thinking can I be a wife ? One as pretty as the ones on Facebook ? Can I attain any of the white picket one liners ? 

As a single mom at 36 it's rough . I think every one should turn off their facebooks .... And live in the real world