Thursday, September 25, 2014


This lost blog once had hundreds of readers now lies here destitute , a dear diary have you will for my series of unfortunate events with him . " The One."

I don't sleep , I try to move on , I find myself searching for him in crowds , in everything . 

I'm not even the romantic type who even believes in love you see . I give no one even the chance , and then I met him and just like that , yes , it was just like that , one look ... I was invited into his soul and he was invited into mine with out my own permission ! It just happened  

And I can't even be with him . Is that even fate ? Is it destinys cruel joke ? 

It's been two months since I've seen him and I can't erase him . I think writing will make it feel better ? Does he miss me ? 

He was my best friend . My Gerry from ps I love you . Can true love be found twice ? Can faith bring it back ? 

I have very good looking guys asking me out but there not him . Can I find him again ? I'm sure I won't . 

I guess the answer is , I was blessed to have him at all . 

Wednesday, September 24, 2014


Where do you go when your in a prison

Saturday, September 20, 2014


It's been almost 2 months since I last saw him . He has not contact me . It's just as hard today as was the day I left him . I will not contact him though he left me , it was his decision . My only tie to him is my job , I'm quitting next week . I know for sure I will never ever see him again . I know if he wanted to he would contact me . I never thought I would be that girl who has guys chasing her but only loves the one who isn't . The girl who keeps watching out the window for her hero to come but knows he won't . I go on dates but can't hear the conversation because I think of him it ends in a hug .

Will it get better ? I don't know ? My faith is broken

Friday, September 12, 2014


When I miss you do you feel it ? When I speak to you do you hear me ? 

Monday, September 8, 2014


What to do with a broken heart